Sunday, December 4, 2011

is there something wrong with me?

This Christmas season has honestly been difficult. I haven't really been wanting to get into the Christmas spirit. I didn't even do the Messiah performances yesterday because I just couldn't do it. Which is not like me at all. I also haven't hung out with anybody since my dad's memorial until Friday night when I went to the deaf chat with some of my friends from my ASL class. I've just been such a recluse as of late. Correction, I've always been kind of anti social but I've just haven't wanted to do as much lately since my father's death. Which I know in the long run isn't the best thing in the world. And I feel like I just don't have anybody to hang out with, every time I text someone and I'm like "hey, what are you doing this weekend?" and as always they just respond back "Nothing," and I'm always like "....you want to do something?" and as usual "I don't know, I might be doing something else." So frustrating. Am I really just that horrible at being social and trying to get people to hang out or is there something wrong with me?

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  1. You aren't the only one who isn't the best at social interaction. I'm not very good at social interaction and only have 1 friend that hangs out with me outside of school occasionally. Trust me there's NOTHING wrong with you or people wouldn't bother hanging out with you at all in the first place.... I'd hang out with you but I can't drive so I'm usually stuck at home unless 1 of my parents isn't working. Yeah not doing anything after your father's death won't help you in the long run, only hurt you. If you ever want to hang out and I'm around, I'll hang out. :)
    ~Bryanna

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